I am such an ass. I just did the dumbest thing to a very good friend of mine. I had reasons though, some may not find valid but I felt it was the right thing to do at the time. But right now at this moment I feel so horrid. Arrrghhh.... I don't know what to do now though. I can't apologize cause I'm not sorry for what I did, but I am sorry for how they probably feel right now. And I know this is not going to blow over easily, but I pray that it blows over before I leave. Sigh.