Aye I wish I was back home yunno. I wish it was last week Wednesday. I could do without the Tuesday from last week though. But I was so happy home. I felt so loved and so missed. Lol. It's a great feeling. Imagine I used to be cussing bout I wanted to be out of Tobago. The grass greener come to mind here? Lol I mean they fass, and slow, and rude and just like to get on like they come from another planet but I miss them. And what's better some miss me too. And they always try to make me feel as good as I can. Ex boyfriend and all. Lmao. Last week this time what was I doing?? Sleeping because I was getting taken out. Something that has not happened to me in months. Wednesday was a good night. I even get in trouble for trying to use the male bathrooms in Shade. Classic. No I was not drunk I'm just dam lazy. Thursday what did I do? Oh it's all a blur...lol. My mom was like why the heck you can't wake up on a morning. I'm usually up early. But between drinking in the night then drinking at home because I refuse to let them get to save all those drinks, I was a bit lethargic most of the day. Plus the heat!!!

* Be a motorbike owner and rider.

* Be a makeup artist

* Go to Japan - Trying to next year.

* Go to Africa.

* Be an individual and queen for a mas band in Trinidad.

* Be a race car driver.

* Start my dreads over. Said I would when I have my first kid. Ha!

* A traveling journalist.

* A chef

* Taster and review writer for a food channel show.

* Become certified as a mechanic. I could fix mi bike.

* Go to an exotic island.

What a week. I’m back in the old 305 well 954. My trip home was well needed, despite the circumstances. The funeral was just that typical funeral. Early up my aunt laid down the rules that they won’t be any crying until she cried. Well everybody knows I don’t follow rules to well. Most of my family members had seen the body the night before, I didn’t. So seeing him that morning was just … sigh. So I broke all rules. But anyway… now it’s time for the adjusting mode to set in. And now I’m just worried about my aunt and her adjustment from being with someone that she did almost everything with to now being alone.

So after that it was a good week. Great week! With no work and no school I was in vacation mode and with the help of Bunga, Nessa and my cousin Laci we raped it well. Lol. It has been the most fun I’ve had for a while. I still had an exam and 2 assignments to do but there’s something about doing your assignments on an island that makes it less harsh. I had a ball. Almost didn’t make it back due to one clown worker at Caribbean Airlines and the fact that only one scanner at Piarco working with 10 fights trying to leave with 100+ passengers. Drama!! But I did make it.

It’s always a good feeling when someone wants to go you with you and hang out. It’s great to go out and see old friends and just hang and have a fun time. Lol! I think Tobago is my vacation spot because being there long frustrates me.

Things to avoid while on vacation in Tobago: Drunk ex boyfriends who forget they’re married and think they in charge of you, Breakfast at Vie D’ France, Mojitos at the Shade, The Shade on a Jazz night charging $100 to $200 for entry, dumb Caribbean Airline workers who think because they checking you in you have to take bullshit from them.

Things to make sure you have while on vacation in Tobago: Good friends, good drinks, female bathrooms on both sides of a venue… lol.

Back to work now I go! Steups!!

Claude "Tools" Joseph

In full form!

One big fat one too. I cannot do this for much longer yunno. I can't. When you needed me to be there for you. I was there 110%. Bringing in all my family and friends. Now I need support and like you want me to beg you for it! Tired!

Atleast I'm home. And I got to extend my stay. And Imma make sure and enjoy it to the fullest. Atleast after tomorrow. Here I can move as I want and not feel like I have to depend and ask somebody to take me out with them. I already have a list of folks to take me around after tomorrow and Nessa is coming in. Joy!!

Now first I have to get past tomorrow and this funeral and everybody expecting me to be strong for everybody else and nobody worrying if imma get through it. The faster tomorrow evening comes the better for me. Sigh!

I so wish I was home right now. Everybody's together there sharing in the grief. I'm here ALL ALONE! It's hard. Even harder that I not sure if i can make it home. I'm going crazy. I so wish I had somebody here with me. Sigh. Can I get through this by myself? I just wish I had somebody here that I could talk to. To just spend sometime with. To just step into my world for a little bit and understand that I'm hurting and comfort me. Steups. You would think that some people would make an effort to at least attempt to console another. You learn more and more each day about how people are.

Look we gotta talk
Dang I know
I know it's just
It's just...
Some things I gotta get of my chest alright....
Yeahhhh...
Whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa...
Listen..

Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

[Hook]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

[Hook]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh [4x]
Do you hear me crying?
Oh, oh, oh [4x]

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

That was the main thing about my uncle that I adored. He put his family before himself ALWAYS. And his family wasn't just his kids but encompassed his nieces and their mothers. Uncle Claude embodied what I want in a husband. And I always say I hope that the person I meet puts me as their top priority as he did. He would always make sure that we got what we wanted or he assisted us in the process of attempting to get it. He would try his hardest to help out, even if it meant hurting his back to do it. If I was on one end of the earth and he was on the other and I needed a ride he would come. I would have to wait forever cause he does drive reaaaaal slow, but he was coming. Don't make a mistake and mention that you want to do something, he was going to go ahead and try to get it done. If he couldn't do it, he would get someone to do it for you. With no regrets, no pay back waiting for.

Sigh. Uncle Claude and I had this off kinda relationship from early. We butted heads because he couldn't understand why I always wanted my mother when I had 6 other cousins around me that I could hang out with . Yes I was a mommy's girl. And I would BAWL for hours i she wasn't with me. One time she had to go out so we were bundled to Milford Court to spend the time with my other cousins. everybody else ran into the house all ready to play in whatever form they choose. Me, I stood by the gate screaming my lungs out as the car pulled away. Uncle Claude tried to calm me down then after a while and getting upset he tells me "well you stay dey and cry till she come back" and he walks inside. Uhm, 10 minutes after I was inside. Lol. But it's weird for me. Me playing with my cousins results in something. Either I get in trouble or somebody starts to bleed or both.

Over the years and with a few run ins because my ideas just always wasn't his we created this friendship. He expected weirdness from me and I expected nothing but a "she's weird" reaction from him. In fact that's the reaction from most of my older family members. It's Renee. Lol. But Uncle Claude was encouraging, and helpful and soooo devoted to his wife. Always had a story to tell about his old police buddies. And though over the years his hip hasn't allowed him to run us down and clout us like he used to his voice alone would bellow you into fear or joy!! Ayyyeee... was his call everytime he came home. This is after calling to say he was on his way, finding out if anyone wanted anything and always happy to see us. He would see me everyday and I always felt like he hadn't seen me in years. Lol.

They talking about death certificate today and I keep having to think for who? Sigh. I remember he had this chair that we would always want to sit in and we would always get cuss for it. One of those lazyboys. We would fight to get it when he wasn't around and then they would be mad scamper when you hear the truck come to get out. And he would always know we were in it. I think he liked to see us scamper too. As to that truck. He was a machanic after he retired and always had a van driving. And a wrecker and we would always want to go on it. I think someone of his ran over my sister's foot. Lol. He would pack us up into the vans and everybody and the mommies would head on a beach day!! Sigh. Memories.

All the nastiness I've ever eaten was first with him turtle, alligator, somethings I am sure he never told me was what. All garage food! All cooked with love and compassion. Ah!!

You'll be surely missed Uncs. I hope you come back in somebody for me. Someone who would love me like you did Aunty Claudia, and your kids and us. Someone who would put me as top priority as you did. Someone who would be willing to love unconditionally after all these years. Someone who could cook a mean pot like you, cause yunno I love mi belly.

I love you!!

R.I.P Claude Joseph.

for the company last night. I needed to talk. I needed to laugh. I needed to get through this. I needed to talk about the good times we shared! Thanks for the support.

My uncle died today. And I am sooo not ready to talk about this yet. I am so not ready to concentrate to talk about it.

Today I feel so bummy. Not lazy bummy with energy but lazy with no energy. I had to fight myself to wake up this morning. Fight. I got up at about 10.40. I can barely eat anything. My head hurts, my belly hurts. Steups. I have 3 projects to be working on and I can't seem to focus. My fingerprint reader decides to act up today so I have to keep typing in my passwords. My eyes hurt and it's cold outside.

Today is NOT going as I hoped!!

AND I got a bad grade from my Professor whose comments say Excellent work. How can it be excellent and I have a C? Steups!!!

And I have to finish my papers today!!

Yeaaa...first time too! Lol. The things that excite me these days!!

Things im Passionate about
- Family/Friends
- Travelling
- Makeup (I'm currently a makeup addict. No shame in my game.
- Bags
- Shoes
- Electronics
- Food ( I love cooking but you see the clean up after. I find if you cook for someone they should atleast clean up... Yes I cannot be a housewife)
- My blogs

This song was in my head all morning while I was up!!

I finally got some sleep at about 7 am. Arrggghhh. I was up at 9.10 am... Arrgghhh. Today is going to be a zombie day. Atleast I am getting to go shop a little for some things, which I am soo excited about...lol. But I'm still sleepy and have cramps and wish I could get a massage, or a hug! Sigh!!

It's 3.09 a.m and I'm still up!!! And in pain!! Why?

It's 4.46 a.m and I'm still up. Drinking some sweet dreams, hope that helps. Because it makes no sense for me to go to sleep at 6am. Imma be back up in half hour.

So I have been looking for some casual, low shoes to chill out in. Most people know that 90% of my shoes are high heels from 4" and up. Those that are not are slippers. Which can't always be worn and if it's cold then it's even worse. I've been hunting for a sneaker but not a sneaker. I'm weird too. I don't really like clean girly stuff. So as a result I have been looking for mens sneakers in my size. I have seen somethings I like so far though.

Option 1




Yea I can see the faces now. Haha.. I said I was weird. But these are Ed Hardys that I saw. I like his shoes a lot. They're graphic and just weird. Obviously to be worn with plain things (white tees and jeans). I've seen a few others online. They normally retail for 140 us but Ms. Has No Job not even going to do that so I'm looking around seen them a lot of places though for at most $80. Hmm

I can see my mother's face when she sees me with these kicks. *Skin up face* Oh gosh you could buy weird things eh!! Lmao!!

*search continues*

Today was a good day! I dunno, things just popping up and all I can do is laugh. I can't get upset anymore nah. It's draining me. But I feel sooo much better today. I feel like I have surely gotten somethings off of my shoulders, even though it may be "wallish". Lol. But it's out there. There's one other area I need to confront, but today just doesn't feel like the day for it, I'm getting this feeling. Oh well.

I handed in my assignments and have spent the rest of the day blogging and taking Nessa in with me...lol. I am sure as a result she is going to be making a list of things to get...lol. My eyes are burning. I've read about 10 blogs today about everything you can think of. A lot of makeup, a lot of clothes websites, remedies, pics. It's been a busy day. And a list day too.

Throwbacccck!!! I remember when this song just came out. My ex would play it for me everyday (wuh he trying to say he wish I was dead??) Neehh. Give it up for my shorty shorty!!! Lol.....

deserves to be unhappy in their life. Regardless of what. Well then I think of Adolph Hitler and these people who have inflicted hurt onto other people for their own personal reasons. So let me adjust this: No one deserves to be unhappy in their life especially if they have not made anybody elses life unhappy!

So my name is Renee. It's French. It's really Re Nee. It means Rebirth and that's just what I'm going to do. Today I decided that today was going to be revelation day. I have told everyone what I needed to say and now I am ready to get out of this rut.

So here's to a good weekend into a great week and a transforming period. Here's to me atleast leaving the house sometime this weekend. My first transformation plan is my hair. Then I need to find a stress releaser. If only I could find a cheap personal trainer... I would be up in the gym sweating it out! But I have to find something that gets me out of the house for a while a week and where I can mingle with people.

I blight! Believe it. My gosh!! I need a washing. Besides school and being alive, everything else for me needs a cleaning. My expectations of things going smoothly or how I may want it or atleast be a good experience for me without dramas, lies and deceptions is now set to NOT going to happen! So to save myself heart aches and disappointments I have lowered my expectations and thinking the worse for everything. If I think bad and good does not happen then I would be prepared for it.

Tomorrow for this yes!!

So I am still in line for some birthday gifts from my beloved friends who understand that I don't ever ask for anything till around that time...lol. And i'm in line for a new digital camera. So to save the late buyers some time I have researched (done all the hard work) and found the best one for me.

I introduce you to the DSC T70 Pink. (A step up from my T50)


This is one HOT and Sexy Digi cam. It is a touch screen too.... Yummy!! I love new technology and I LOVE taking pics!! Put them together and you get a DIGITAL CAMERA. Lol!

If you can't tell by now I am a huge fan of Keyshia Cole's new album, Just Like You. It has caught me at a time. Lol.....

Just saying!!

[Verse 1:]
It's been too long baby, since you've been gone from me.
And I miss your touch.
Cuz no one could ever no, love me the way you do.
Oh no, no, no.

[Pre-Chorus:]
(Oh, and taking me away from you will be no damn good for me)
I need you in my life.
No one could compare to you.

[Chorus:]
I'm so confused.
Don't know if I'm losing you. (Don't know if I'm losing you, oh)
I'm so confused. (Oh)
Don't know if I'm losing you. (Baby)

[Verse 2:]
And there no way I could ever find someone real as you.
Keep it true like you do.
And I don't wanna lose your love, oh.
Over being hurt before.
Being afraid before, no.

[Pre-Chorus:]
(And taking me away from you will be no damn good for me) (Taking me away)
I need you in my life.
No one could compare to you.

[Chorus:]
I'm so confused. (I'm so confused, aye)
Don't know if I'm losing you. (I don't wanna lose your love baby)
I'm so confused. (Baby, baby, baby, baby)
Don't know if I'm losing you. (Please tell me you understand)

[Anthony:]
Baby, I know what you've been through.
So I'm here to relieve you.
Remind you.
Renew you.
Rebuild you.
Girl, I'll do whatever it takes just to reshape what he mess up.
Cuz real love needs real love.
And I'm here love cuz I need you.

[Pre-Chorus:]
(And taking me away from you will be no damn good for me)
Said I need you in my life.
No one could compare to you.

[Chorus:]
I'm so confused.
Don't know if I'm losing you. (Don't be confused girl, I'll never leave you baby)
I'm so confused.
Don't know if I'm losing you. (I don't know what I'll do without your love, aye)

Don't wanna lose your love.
Don't wanna lose you.

Today was rather interesting. I'm getting big yunno. I'm proud of myself. Anyway back to topic.

Today I had my biology class. My teacher has his PhD in Biology. Biology is the study of life by his definition. So why de hell de man doh want to say clitoris in front de class?? Well today I was making sure he did. Looking at my hand out I keep asking him about a line on the paper and he skirting past the word. Calling every word around clitoris but clitoris. The class is having a ball. Steups. I doh get it, If you studying life which includes the body why HE cyar say C L I T O R I S? Why then put it on the paper?? Boy I tell you. Anyway I didn't want to keep back the class too much, since we were having soo much fun! (Sarcasm!)

Then he starts to talk about sex cells. Ha! So my question was "What's that?" His response is the explanation about guys making these cells that has to do with sperm and sex. ok. So I whisper, or so I think, "Like I goh know what sex is". Well oh gosh. De whole class mash up. Man send we on break yes. Rahahah.

So this is where the problem arises. As I am walking out, Dr Mr Man says 10 minutes Whoppi. WTF? Because I black and have dreads I am Whoppi? I that ugly? Or was it for my splendiferous jokes that made the class laugh like if my ocupation was a comedian? My next question was "what's that?". What's sex for real? lol... but that's a whole different thread.

*dance* (Nessa I have to take that smiley from you) After a close to horrendous week with my Network + class I was swamped. I didn't want to check my grades cause Lord knows I was totally unhappy with what I had handed in. But yunno I am a sucker so I checked it tonight....*does somersaults*. I got two A's. 5 marks short of the total because I didn't chat enough with my classmates in the discussion. Oh please!! But I'm happy...yea..but mind you I have not started this week's yet... Tomorrow is another day of anxiety....Sigh!

Tonight my lonely night was interrupted by a call at 12.30. A home friend calling to catch up. It was nice!! Lol. Some good laughs, re broad casted memories and good laughs. I haven't laughed like that in months. These days I have this fake laugh that comes from the surface. These laughs tonight came from the heart. It feels good. And it makes me wonder if I was too anxious to leave Tobago and didn't realize that the people around me were sooo good to me and that I may have been under valuing their love for me in order to over value something else. It felt good tonight to laugh and feel loved and missed. Lol!! Good times!! Special Moments. I hope I have never made my friends feel less of a friend for any reason because I truly value their friendship, their love, their appreciation and respect for me in their life.

So tonight or this morning was a good one. Good friends, good convo both on the phone and online.

When you're left home alone majority of the time you find things to entertain yuhself!

Yuh have to. Else you would be lonely AND going crazy!! Lol. They say the devil finds work for idle hands...They also say what you don't know won't kill you... well... anyway... haha. Only time will tell!!

So anyone that knows me knows I HATE too much stuff on my face. I am an earth chile. Browns, light greens not too much. But today my sister tried out some colour on me. The Pink Look. Here's the process.

Aww... I have a little cousin by the name of Mykal that is too cute. And too smart. He's only 1+ but acts like he's 12. But I guess all kids do. He's sick now though. Has a fever that doesn't seem to be breaking. I hope he gets out of it soon and out of the hospital cause lord knows how that hospital works or doesn't work. So I was here browsing through pictures to lift my mood today and bounced up on these of Mykal Gerard Paria whose closest way of saying my name is Aunty Enee... haha







Get well soon Myk Myk!!

[verse 1 ]
Been sitting thinking about you and I and wondering why were not getting along
so frustrated 'cause what we had was a happy home.
I don't know what the situation is but I can tell in the way we kiss
we don't talk no more it feels better when I'm alone

[pre-chorus:]
Sometimes I feel like there's no getting through to you
like you don't appreciate all that I do.
you gotta show me that you want me to stay
don't turn & walk away

[chorus:]
baby I'm slowly falling out of love with you
I don't know what to do,
how did we end up here this way?
what are we gonna do?
I'm slowly falling out.. baby
we're tripping on silly things
boy I need you to meet me halfway,
if you want me to be with you..

[verse 2]
I remember when, I'd be with my friends
you checked on me and made time to call
but how things have changed? --
now I don't hear from you at all.
Yeah yeah yeah

[pre-chorus]

[chorus]

[bridge]
don't let your pride get in the way,
for something we worked so hard --
don't throw it away
I've been tryna make you see
everything you need is right here with me

[pre-chorus]

[chorus]

Slowly falling
slowly falling

How did we end up here this way?
Oh

Slowly falling
slowly falling

How did we end up here this way?
oh

Today is Sunday and this is my mood for the day!!

Lord knows I'm really fighting with some inner demons this round. And this has NOTHING to do with my assignment that is butched up and due today!! I need to find a church!! Even if it's just to get some "blessings".

Sent from heaven.
Sent from heaven.

Now you can wait your whole life wondering
When it's gonna come or where it's been.
You may have got your heart broken
A few times in the past
Never last strong as it used to,
Don't feel as good as it used to (before)
And all the things you used to say,
Things you used to do, went right out the door

Oh no more, will you be the one
That's what you tell everyone around you
But you know they've heard it all before
What more can you say
When love won't let you, walk away
And you can't help who you love
And you find yourself giving it away
When you think you're in love

[CHORUS:]
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)

Now you can wait your whole life tryna change
What the fear from what it's been
You may have put your whole life into a man
Loving what you thought that could've been.
Don't wanna swing your change
When you don't feel as good as you used to (before)
And everything you used to say,
Everything you used to do clear right out the door

Oh no more, will you be the one
That's what you tell everyone around you
But you know they've heard it all before
What more can you say
When love won't let you, walk away
And it can't help who it loves
And you find yourself giving it away
When you think you're in love

[CHORUS]
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)

Everybody say
I wanna be the one you love
I wanna be (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one you trust
I wanna be (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one you need
I wanna be (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one
I wanna be the one (sent from heaven)

[CHORUS:]
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)
I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)

I wanna be the one who you believe
In your heart is sent from (sent from heaven)
There's a piece of me who leaves when you gone
Because you're sent from (sent from heaven)

That's something that I never got and I don't think I ever will. Who was the jackass that put off the notion that men were able to abide to a different set of rules than ladies were? I mean, it's a typical "do so doh like so" kinda situation.

I hate them. Lawd. Why do people lie? Yes i know the reasons but I hate the fact that people think they can lie to me and get away with it. You don't. You may think you do, but you don't. Lying intentionally for a reason I hate. Lying intentionally for no reason, I HATE. Withholding information from me IS A LIE!!!

And some people are not even good liars. They think they are though. They set their own selves up. Once you lie you have to remember to keep covering that lie ALL THE WAY TO THE END!! Minutes, days, month, years later. I have this dumb gene that makes me remember stuff people tell me minutes, days, month, years later.

Right now I have some liars around me and I'm just giving them enough rope to hang themselves. I don't LIE to you so I don't see why you think you need to LIE to me!!

Watch yuhself!!

is NOT a good one. I am in the middle of having an anxiety attack. Really. The morning has just been going downhill since I got up LATE. Between work and just dumb shit happening I think my air passage is getting smaller by the minute!! Arrgghhh. But work is kicking my ass this week. I dunno, it's just not coming together as I would like. But what is? Lmao. Breathe!!!!

To tell you how bad it is I have not eaten for the day. Me? At 2 pm? Not eat? Not eat more than once? Something has to be wrong.

And I was coming with another post today but due to some situations I think I will just hold off on that post for a bit!! Lol. I can't deal with anything else popping up today nah!! I mightn't be able to breathe at all.

My plans for the weekend? Besides a dinner date I have looks like I'm going to be at home as usual. If you want to take me out leave me a message nah!! lol. I need some kind of release from the stress. Sigh!